February 2012
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Mental Illness is NOT
A weakness
Laziness
Something to be ashamed of
Nonexistent
‘All in your head’
Something to make fun of
Something to be ignored
A reason to dislike someone
A reason to judge someone
A result of a persons’ shortcomings
Simple
A persons’ selfishness
Impossible to overcome
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For those wondering, the FLAG Live streamed...
thief-of-sound:
Finally!
According to gigstreams twitter I mean
Okay. This is a weird question and I’m not sure if you’d know the answer. Will the download still be available for purchase, or did I miss my only chance by not seeing the live performance?
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Update on mental state
My medication has been tweaked. I feel a bit better.
I’m still paranoid. I get a mini-heart attack every time the phone rings at work.
Still in the process of recovering from losing a close friend. I’m past the anger stage. I’m past the depressive stage. I still miss him, but I know there’s nothing I can do, so I’m trying to just forget about it all. I don’t...
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KID DELF ROMANTIC BODY
What the hell? I just ordered my doll and now they come out with an adult body for the kid delfs?
I thought I’d be able to stick with one doll, but…I really do love the kid delfs and they’re such a good price… ><
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BJD Fans
white-monarch:
I’m researching into what I want for my first doll. Are there any good male dolls with horns or wings? I have a fae character in mind. Any help?
There are dolls that come with horns and wings, but I think it’s more important to find a sculpt you like for other reasons. In the marketplace on Den of Angels, we have a commission section. There are people who custom-make wings...
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SO i'm playing eternal sonata
popcultureonpause:
and one of the characters is chopin. he is dying because he’s magical, and the entire game is his dream. WHAT DO I EVEN DO WITH THIS. WHAT EVEN IS.
The way I’ve seen it is that they have magic because they’re dying. For Polka, it’s the terminal illness. For Chopin, it’s because he’s dying in his “own world.”
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What not to say to someone depressed (particularly...
“Just get over it. I got over my depression and I know other people who have, too.”
WELL, FUCKING GOOD FOR YOU. I’M SURE YOU GOT OVER IT BY PEOPLE TELLING YOU THAT EXACT SAME THING, HUH?!
You know what this does to me, personally? This makes me angry. This makes me bitter. Telling me that you got over “yours” does nothing to help me manage mine. You can’t...
“I cut myself because you wouldn’t let me cry. I cried because you wouldn’t let...”
– Emilie Autumn (via pikachuandrazorblades)
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Livestream
of EA’s concert tomorrow. Worth buying? I won’t be able to be awake for the whole thing, but there will be a download of the concert included….
but won’t it end up on youtube, anyway?
Oh, my poor wallet. I know it’s not expensive, I’ve just spent a lot this month, already.
Input?
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Am i the Only one who actually doesnt like Emilie...
twistedsickminded:
I mean i love the way she dresses and shit but i just dont like her music. i mean, i dont mind her music but im just not a fan of her :l Her music gets me so fucking bored X.x
Well….if you’re looking in the Emilie Autumn tag, you’re bound to find a good amount of fans O.o
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“I can’t deal with your baggage anymore.”
– An old friend
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A lot of people like the saying,
“What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.”
I think that’s utter bullshit. The things that have almost killed me and did not succeed have done nothing but make me weak, finicky, and scared.
What doesn’t kill me…doesn’t kill me. And that’s the end of that.
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BJD Clothes Shopping
MUST HAVE!
Too big.
SO CUTE!
Too small.
…meh.
Perfect size.
WHAT IS THIS ATROCITY?
(Don’t even get me started on prices/shipping)
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The Story of a Bipolar Bear.: tw suicide/selfharm →
juthikaforpresident:
I get really, really sad when someone tells me that suicide is a selfish act. I wish I could show them things like this and this
gah, my heart hurts. I’m so tired of being told that cutting is selfish, that what I think about is selfish, because most of the people…
What I hear most often, from multiple sources, is:
“Well, then stop!”
Stop what,...
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Doll Updates
I got majorly depressed not too long ago and I decided, to hell with it, I’m getting my doll to cheer myself up. (Among other reasons)
Of course, since the purchase is above a certain price, I had to attach my bank account to my paypal and blah blah blah. So everything should be ready to order her tomorrow!
Oh! And I bought her an outfit from quantumdot on etsy, two pairs of eyes (green...
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“This was the main precondition, that anything might be something else. Once...”
– Susanna Kaysen
Girl, Interrupted
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“The only odd thing was that suddenly I was a vegetarian.
I associated meat with...”
– Susanna Kaysen
Girl, Interrupted
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One day,
I hope to be able to look in the mirror and see somebody beautiful.
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Got Delia some new food today.
I’m weening her off the Spike’s Delite after having heard so many bad reviews of it. Once she’s done with that, her mix will be,
Purina One Chicken and Rice
Chicken Soup for the Cat Lover’s Soul Lite
Natural Balance Green Pea and Duck
What does your hedgehog mix consist of?
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What are your favorite BJD companies?
heavenlyresin:
I personally love Iplehouse, Migidoll, and Crobidoll. I would love Migidoll and Crobidoll a lot more if they released MSDs that are just as attractive as their SD sized dolls but hey, what ever. And this company called DollClans has also caught my eye recently but so far they’ve only released SD sized heads, still gonna keep an eye on them though.
I really love Iplehouse...
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Trigger warning: suicide
I was doing fairly well.
But I just got suicidal. With a really stupid trigger.
And I know it’s stupid and that fact makes me feel even worse.
I just don’t see a reason to live anymore. So many people try and give so many reasons, but they all seem empty. I can name plenty of reasons why somebody else should deserve to go on. But they just don’t seem true for me.
I feel like...
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“I don’t mind telling you
My life was ended by your hand
The kind of...”
– Emilie Autumn, Gothic Lolita
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angstytimetraveler:
I couldnt imagine if people took every time I said “I want to die.” “K. Suicide now.” “Fuck it I’ll shoot myself.” Seriously. I would be on suicide watch so hard.
Before I mention the text, I’d like to note how this was tagged. #Suicide #lol
These are two very different tags with very different purposes. People don’t look under the suicide tag to be mocked. I...
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Common Phrases from an Uncommon Individual
“I want you to feel like my house is your sanctuary that you can never visit.”
“I haven’t been ignoring you.”
“You’re just a horrid friend going through a rough time right now.”
“Sorry I can’t answer every single text you send me (or any of them, for that matter).”
“I’ve been so busy (playing video games), I just...
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Dear fucking Lord Savior,
Is there even one mental disorder/illness that people take fucking seriously?
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FEBRUARY! why special?
aglimpseofakiss:
#2. Month of the moodies (bipolaroids)
Why it becomes special? Just like them, I too am moody and always shift moods. Eg. I am very much happy then suddenly I’ll be bitter. I do have mood swings but I’m proud because it makes me unique and noticeable. Just like the febbies! :D
Bipolar is more than being moody. It is a truly serious disorder.
Honestly, there’s so...
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It's so cold I am considering becoming a hedgehog...
spencerreidbelongswithme:
But if it snows. Wake me up!!!
Fun fact!: hedgehogs aren’t required to hibernate. In warmer climates, they absolutely do not.
In an off-manner, this is why it’s dangerous for a pet hedgehog to hibernate.
Hedgehogs have “brown” and “white” fat. The white fat is reserved for everyday tasks. The white fat is the first to go when they...
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Sure, I'll see you around.
But not really. I know how this shit goes.
I mean, yeah, we’ll see each other at the market sometimes. And in the brief second we look into each other’s eyes, I’ll pretend you didn’t tear my heart into bits. You can pretend you ever gave a shit as to the condition of the aforementioned heart.
I look forward to it.
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How to Get Your Professor(s) to Like You With...
For years now, I have been wooing my teachers/professors into thinking I am the most respectful, intelligent young woman they will likely encounter. With this, I have been given leeway for attendance, late assignments, and grading overall. (Remember: “participation” is a grade).
A lot of people have been misled to believe that you actually have to put a lot of effort into a class in...
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Are you sure?
“r u sure ur bipolar or just a human who gets stressed from time to time life is stressful”
I don’t even know how to respond to this. It feels degrading. It’s not meant to be, I know that. It just disgusts me that people don’t take me or my illness seriously.
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“Funny how the only one in your bed is you.”
– Emilie Autumn, I Know Where You Sleep
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I hate lying
when you ask if I’m okay.
But ‘okay’ is such a relative term. I’m physically okay. I’m not sick. I’m not starving. I’m not struggling in my classes. I’m not on the verge of getting fired at my job.
Mentally? You didn’t ask me that. You didn’t ask me how I was feeling. So I didn’t lie. I didn’t have to. I just told the truth...